zondag 2 maart 2008


I'm so ridiculously tired. In the last 8 days I have visited the hospital 17 times and it's really time absorbing. When I come home at night all I want to do is sleep and stop thinking. My mother is doing slightly better. She hasn't suffered any 'physical damage' but her short-term memory is almost non-existent. She has a hard time recalling names and places. And on top of that she's suffering from aphasia. Which is quite exhausting. It's really difficult when you're talking to someone and they tell you the same thing every ten minutes. Not that I mind, it's just hard to remain enthousiastic. Talking to her involves a lot of guessing. She has a hard time finding the right words. It all feels incredibly unrealistic, like it's not happening. And it hurts really bad that the mommy I knew isn't exactly her old self anymore.
Oh and I'm sick of all the junkfood I'm consuming right now. We never have time to cook. Seriously, if I have to eat one more pizza I'm going to kill someone. Preferably someone Italian.
On a slightly different note, tomorrow I'll have my fourth driving lesson. The last one was a miniature disaster. I think I scared the hell out of my instructor, but hey, at least I had a valid excuse.
Also, you might remember that I was supposed to go to Kopenhagen this weekend. I was really looking forward to that and I'm terribly disappointed about the fact that I had to cancel my trip. Eventhough it's the least of my worries right now, it still sucks. Better luck next time, I hope.

I would also like to mention something completely different.When I went to see the movie Jumper a few weeks ago, horrible movie btw, I found myself to be much more intrigued by a trailer I saw before the movie, than by the movie itself. It was about the Other Boleyn Girl, starring Natalie Portman and Scarlett Johansson - hate them both for obvious reasons - and I thought it looked fantastic. Definitely need to see it. And read the book. I wonder if it's available at my library. Anyway, here's the trailer that caught my eye:

And that's all for today.

2 opmerkingen:

Mila zei

Jeetje, dat lijkt me heel klote allemaal. Wat zal het vreemd zijn je moeder ineens in zo'n andere toestand mee te maken. Hopelijk komt ze er helemaal bovenop en zal ze snel de oude zijn.
Idd erg jammer van je reisje naar Kopenhagen. Misschien over een paar maandjes, maar dan met je moeder ofzo?
Ja, die film lijkt me ook wel boeiend. Hee, maar waarom haat je die 2 actrices zo? ;)
Fijne week!

onomatopoeia. zei

Ja het is idd geen pretje, maar het valt tot dusver wel te doen. De ontkenningsfase is een hele fijne state of mind ;) Kopenhagen loopt gelukkig niet weg, dus dat komt wel goed.

Wat Natalie P. en Scarlett J. betreft, misschien is haten een groot woord. Groen zien van jaloezie is beter op zijn plaats 8)